Saturday, May 9, 2009 1:14 AM, CDT



I can't lie. Mother's Day is hard to swallow this year. Even though I do not emphasize it, Diego made it special by wanting to make it special. He was so happy to give me the gifts he made at school last year. I still have the gift hanging on the amoire in the living room and remember him explaining it to me with such pride.

Please pray for Dallas . He hit cancer out of the park this week. http://www.presstelegram.com/sports/ci_12259918

His caringbrige site is listed in the article.
http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/dallashumphreys

The picture of Diego with his chocolate cake goatee is from July 4, 2006.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009 1:36 AM, CDT

I know many readers came here initially for hope and were encouraged by our journey. I will continue to write here although now the story has changed from one of hope to one of despair. I would love to say that there is hope of being happy again when your child dies but honestly I cannot. I wish I could say the pain subsides with time. It is not true. As time goes on it it harder to live without Diego. It is not like any other loss. We still do the day to day. We do often laugh and smile along the way but below the surface things are not so well. His pictures and memories haunt me but hold me together all the while. I see a boy with the beautiful hair Diego had and I long to for the nights I would run my fingers through his hair. The only thing I can say is that we by the grace of God are able to get through each day. I know you don't know what to say. Either do I. Just knowing you are here and care means so much. We will survive this but don't expect us to say we are doing great. We are just OK mostly. Keeping busy helps but there are times when we need to have our space. Lilia is doing great although she misses Diego. Children are resilient. She is getting so big and smart. I wish I could hear the conversations her and Diego would be having now and him bragging about her or explaining how crazy she and why to everyone. We are not doing the torch run this year. We do support it but we don't have the energy to do it yet. We are not sure if we will go visit that day or not. I hope we can go in Diego's honor next year.





Tuesday, May 26, 2009 2:37 AM, CDT



http://abritandabit.typepad.com/...8/i-am-that-mom.html

Came across this and wanted to share.

Pirate Diego Fuentes

Those who knew him would state
he was the bravest pirate that ever lived.
He fought many battles
during his voyage at sea.
The legend of Diego Fuentes
will never be forgotten and told for centuries.
His battles were taken on with valor and a keen wit.
He, several times, stared straight into the eyes of his enemy,
lifted his sword high above his head
and in one swift slash, slayed the mighty beast, “CANCER!”
Although, in history, pirates are not made
saints, this would be an earned exception.
Diego was a brave little boy
who changed the lives of many during his courageous battle.
He taught many lessons in five short years:
1) Take one day at a time and remain grateful.
2) Enjoy nature and the animals around us.
3) Savor good food and have it often.
4) It is o.k. to roar like a dinosaur when you need to.
5) Tell stories and amuse others.
6) Don’t forget to laugh and hug those around you.
7) It is always better to give than to receive.
This little soul gave so much and asked for so little in return.
Pirate Diego is my definition of a saint.

We are headed to Legoland tomorrow! We do miss Diego horribly. The past couple weeks were not easy. I was thinking of how so many of you and especially Parkcrest Pre-School;who brought Christmas to our house got us through. Christmas was hard last year as it is again but we look back and only remember great Christmas Days with Diego. That is a blessing. Hoping you all have a Merry Christmas.